Remember to breathe...

Blogging is my cure for insomnia. Of course, I could be working on the stuff that I need to get done...but that would keep me up even later than I am already. So, I successfully changed my sleep cycle to go with my work schedule. It wasn't that hard, really...I mean, sleeping 'til noon is no hefty chore.

But this is where it comes to bite me in the ass. I got off early tonight because I have an early shift tomorrow. Early meaning 8am, sharp. Not just a shift, but a training class...heh. I need to be bright eyed and bushy tailed, ready to soak up information in the morning and I find myself blogging at 2am. It's a good thing that most of tomorrow will be review, but I do need that review and it's a 10 hour day to boot. I tried getting to sleep, but ended up tossing and turning for an hour because Lucky and Zoe were not getting along. Tried taking a nice, long, hot bath, but that didn't work either. I've been sick this week and all that did was make me hot and feel like shit. And now Lucky and Zoe are both sleeping soundly on my bed, just two feet away from each other.

There's this buzz around me, people talking about new year's resolutions and the such and it got me to thinking. No, I'm not making any resolutions, but it makes me think about the goals I've set out for myself. The magazine is priority...that has to work, there is no room for failure. I think I learned my lesson on that. Then, there are other things buzzing around in my head. I'm working on putting together a non-profit, which is going to be a huge undertaking. On top of these things, I want to put out another book this year and I want to get started on my documentary. I've been putting the documentary on the back-burner because I'm not exactly certain how I'm going to do it yet. I know that it's about roller derby and I know that I'm going to be visiting a lot of leagues to talk to skaters, but I'm not sure what direction it's going in. That's something that I need to think on. But with so much to think on, I need to step back and do one at a time, which has been a huge obstacle for me. I live in constant chaos and there are surprises around every corner. I can handle it, but it can get tiring and sometimes a girl needs to breathe. Maybe that'll be my new year's resolution...remember to breathe.